Let's Rant

Disclaimer: This post might be messy and all over the place but you will get the best out of it.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me I came to London to make my family proud and work hard, but the only thing I have been doing is disappoint them and myself in every way possible.

I try to do everything possible which might just make things better for them and me and keep all of us happy but eventually it fails not shocked at all because it’s my life.

I am sure I can try harder and make things right, but you know that feeling when you just start feeling exhausted without doing anything at all,

I think that each morning I wake up thinking I wanted to complete my to-do list and ended up with nothing because my mind fails to listen and my body gives up on me quickly.

The push harder has become my enemy over this month because I am pushing harder and I failing every time.

Okay let me give you a scenario imagine yourself having all three meals alone, yes I love my space, but I do love a company too because having all your meals and sitting alone in that room filled people makes you realise how sad your life is.

I thought I will be able to change that with time because you can’t make a friend in a day or weeks time but I am over here completing a month and let’s be honest the only friend I have with me is my comfort teddy who has seen it all.

I don't want to give up in any way possible because of the family back home has literally done everything in their power to make sure I pursue my dream, and I can't thank them enough I will be forever in debts of my family for helping me to make my dreams come true. It will be great if I can get some help in getting better and not feel sad or this weird feeling I am getting and make most of my time in this country the most beautiful memory of my life.

If someone is reading this post and got the hang of it then hit me up with advice, please.

Toodles

Take. care